A Good Dad

What makes a good dad? Father's Day 2018 was an especially difficult day for my dear husband. Brandon had gone out of his way to make sure I was comforted on Mother's day. He acknowledged me as a Mother and treated me to ice cream. It had only been 13 days since Eli's death so we spent most of the day at home. 

I wanted to do the same thing for him on Father's day. I tried to support him the best I could as his tears fell during church like I knew they would. It broke my heart that I could not take away his pain. 

Brandon truly has been my rock through this entire grieving process. He is a wonderful husband. 

He is an amazing father. It doesn't get said often enough. There is no visible presence of a child in our house. He was not able to read a story to Eli and he will never be able to teach him how to play baseball, or go fishing with him. He has lost so much from the death of our son. Please do not take more away from him by forgetting to acknowledge that he is a Dad. 

He had to go back to work sooner than I did and he put on a brave face when his world was falling apart. He has had to deal with a lot of questions and comments that were hard to take. 

He loves his son with all of his heart and cherished every moment he got to spend with him. 

He cried tears in the doctor's office when we heard the news that our baby had passed. He cried with me as we walked the hospital halls with our son for the last time. And finally, he cried as he held Eli in his arms for the last time at his funeral. 

Do not tell me he is not a good father. He loves his son as much as any father loves his living children. He has had to give his son back to God, never asking why, and never blaming God for any of this. His heart has been broken but he has survived. 

You are not just a good father. You are the best father I know. I love you.